Five Degrees Off Normal: Episode 45 (Why I Hate Myself, Sabotage Myself, and Yet I Still Persist)

I hate introspection. It makes me mad. Cause I have to think about it.
Then I come to MORE realizations that piss me the fuck off! And since I just paid for another year of hosting five degrees off normal, I may as well get my money’s worth.
Sometimes my anger helps me overcome my self sabotage and inertia. I have no idea why.  So here’s a brain dump.  Enjoy

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And I also have a twitter account!  You can find me @JoulesPodcaster

The intro music is all thanks to Prism Shard. A better friend and troubadour has yet to be born.

Click Click Click

This story takes place in the world of “Little Fears,” created by the amazing Jason Blair.

Clickclickclickclick-click-click-click
Where is the sound coming from? It reverberates. It’s everywhere and nowhere.
Echoing

through

the

dark.

Through

the

nothingness.

Clickclickclick-click-click… clickclickclickclickclickclickclickclickclickclickclick…
I feel it all over. Each click causes the world to shudder and shake. Microquakes traverse my existence, both physical and mental.
That sound is familiar. I heard it once before. Right after I woke up here. But it only lasted about a second.
I wish I knew where “here” is. I haven’t moved since I woke up. More specifically, I can’t move. I’ve tried. I’ve tried everything I can think of. Something is keeping me immobile, frozen. I guess that my imprisonment was designed to terrify me.
I was hysterical at first. Soundlessly screaming in abject terror. Over time, though, that pungent, electric fear gave way to pervasive disquiet. All I feel now is a soft blanket of dread. Forced to endure… this… in lightless petrified solitude.
Clickclickclickclickclickclickclickclickclickclick… Click.
Whirrrrrrrrrrrr…….

I don’t know how long I’ve been in this place. There’s no night and day. I can’t see anything. I know it’s been a long time, cause it’s getting harder to remember things. My mom one told me that it gets hard to remember things as time goes on. I remember my roller skates. They were electric blue. With New Kids on the Block stickers on them. I remember jumping in leaf piles. I remember my friend’s glittery headband. We were laughing. I remember dancing to Roxette’s “The Look” when it came on the radio. I remember playing hide and seek. I ran up to my friend’s closet. Then… Nothing. Icy nothing.
Click – Click – Click.
Snik!
C R E A K!
C L A N G!!!

And one again, nothingness starts to swallow me. But this time it’s warm. And strong. I let go.
…………………………………………………………………………………….
“Oh thank god, you’re still here. I’m so sorry it took so long. The combination to the safe was really hard to find. The Boogeyman didn’t want anyone or anything to find it. Some of the knights gave up returned to the butterfly fields. But I made you a promise thirty years ago and a knight keeps his word.”
The little butterfly flutters weakly against the boy’s chest.
“You don’t remember much now do you? That’s OK. My name is Kendra. I’m the leader of the Butterfly Knights. And I’m here to take you home.”

Five Degrees Off Normal: Episode 44 (Ultimate Nihilistic Despair)

I had a really rough night. Three forms of depression decided to kick my ass at once.
I decided to reflect on it…
Maybe it may help. If not me then maybe someone else

I do have a facebook page. Here’s a link to it.

And I also have a twitter account!  You can find me @JoulesPodcaster

The intro music is all thanks to Prism Shard. A better friend and troubadour has yet to be born.

Five Degrees Off Normal: Episode 43 (When Am I & Who Ate My BBQ )

It’s been a while hasn’t it?  There is way to much for me to just sum up so I’m gonna spread this out over a few episodes.  Cause why the heck not, Right?

Here’s the photo of the cool goblin I found

The Hidden Goblin Pokestop

I do have a facebook page. Here’s a link to it.

And I also have a twitter account!  You can find me @JoulesPodcaster

The intro music is all thanks to Prism Shard. A better friend and troubadour has yet to be born.

Five Degrees Off Normal: Episode 42 (There’s Light in Darkness Sometimes)

What’s been going on? Well sadly it’s not all been good. Seems that 2018 likes to start things off with a shit show.

How have I been dealing with it? I’ve been holding it together. With a little help from my friends.

I do have a facebook page. Here’s a link to it.

And I also have a twitter account!  You can find me @JoulesPodcaster

The intro music is all thanks to Prism Shard. A better friend and troubadour has yet to be born.

Five Degrees Off Normal: Episode 41 (Brain-glitch, the Rig, and the Ponies)

Well I had some great ideas. Fantastic ideas.
And I sit to record them and I go absolutely blank!

So I decided to kind of ramble on about that.

Then I decided to talk about something more interesting, my new desktop!

Then I mention that I’m going to be on the coolest Twitch Live Stream this Friday, December 8th at 9pm Eastern time.  My Little Pony, Tales of Equestria

Be a friend, and join us won’t you?  It’s looking to be freaking awesome

I do have a facebook page. Here’s a link to it.

And I also have a twitter account!  You can find me @JoulesPodcaster

The intro music is all thanks to Prism Shard. Send em some holiday cheer. And cookies!

 

Five Degrees Off Normal: Episode 40 (Holiday Cheer or Holiday Hokum)

Good Day to you all, you fine humans and lizard people!  I hope that you all are doing well.  It’s been a while, but darn you DDOP people, I just can’t resist a challenge.  So here’s my first Holiday Cast!  Taa DAa

I do have a facebook page. Here’s a link to it.

And I also have a twitter account!  You can find me @JoulesPodcaster

The intro music is all thanks to Prism Shard. It’s better than that repetitive kinda hypnotic Xmas music

Five Degrees Off Normal: Episode 39 (Farewell DDOP. We’ll Meet Again)

A Wrapup to the Dog Days of Podcasting.  I’ll be taking a wee bit of time.   It’s not a goodbye though.  It’s till I see ya next time, ok?

Pinky Swear!

I do have a facebook page. Here’s a link to it.

And I also have a twitter account!  You can find me @JoulesPodcaster

The intro music is all thanks to Prism Shard. A better friend and troubadour has yet to be born.

Five Degrees Off Normal: Episode 38 (What to Listen To After the Dog Days of Podcasting? TWRP)

With the Dog Days of Podcasting Ending, I thought it’d be a good idea to recommend some sweet tunes since some of us need to take a wee break and rest our vocal chords.

I Give you TUPPERWARE REMIX PARTY! The Band from the Future

Here’s a link to their Youtube page so you can enjoy their tasty jams.  And here’s a link to their store… Support your artists!

I do have a facebook page. Here’s a link to it.

And I also have a twitter account!  You can find me @JoulesPodcaster

The intro music is all thanks to Prism Shard. Ya know, I’d love to see what Prism Shard thinks about TWRP

Five Degrees Off Normal: Episode 37 (A Hollow and Way Overdue Game Review)

I decided to review this awesome 2D hard as heck platformer.
Hollow Knight

This game is absolutely delightful!  Tough as hell, but very enjoyable.

Since I’ve forgotten to mention it for the past year… Yes I do have a facebook page. Here’s a link to it.

And I also have a twitter account!  You can find me @JoulesPodcaster

The intro music is all thanks to Prism Shard. I can’t thank you enough for everything you’ve done for me!